Month: February 2015

I am Grateful for:

1. Being at my frist paid WordPress Conf.  I am glad I when despite feeling under the weather.  Expanded my horizons with some new ideas to chew over. Still suck at networking but I’m a rockstar when it comes to  hiding in plain sight.
2. Getting to talk to old friends and meet new people when I wasn’t hiding or trying to study for Javascript class.
3. The amazing sunset that we saw when the conference end from the parking lot.
4. The drive home when smooth exp for the 20 mins of pouring rain in the curves part of the I-15 and realizing you forgot to change out your windshield wipers before the trip.
5. That I made it to the Alien Jerky Stop before they closed. Dried meat makes the drive easier. Don’t know why but it works and I like their pepper beef jerky (hint o hint).

 

I am Grateful for:

1. I figure out 3 of the 8 Javascript homework. I was stuck on only understanding one for the past two days.  Still bugs me that I’m having trouble wrapping my head around JavaScript.
2. Caught up with  friends at the Prestige Conf
3. Taking some time out in the morning and doing something for me. I like to try to see something local, like a museum.  When to the Mob Museum. It was a bit morbid but it was really well done.  I’m still on the fence if the $5 audio tour was really worth it or not.  If you check into Yelp, you get $2 off up to four people.
4. Listening to some hipster hippy cowboy that randomly stop as he was walking to his car to tell only me, which was sotra of odd, out of a crowd of people to go to the farmer’s market.  I didn’t buy any produce but I got a phurpa dagger and a bell.
5. Got some local style Hawai’ian food. I remember why I gain so much weight in Hawai’i now but so Ono.

I am Grateful for:

Getting through the day and as much I could done today.

8 weeks of bi-weekly Pilates class and weekly dance class.  I still struggle being able to get though the classes, and still working on reconnecting with my body.

Tea, Tea, and Tea.

 

 

 

I am grateful for:

1. Getting as much as I could done today despite it’s not everything on my list.
2. Not losing it with the estate issues.
3. Food in my belly
4. My bed, yes it’s been one of those days…weeks…months…years…lifetimes.
5. Going to Photoshop class today, even through I wanted to stay home and get some work done.  We had a challenge of scan ten photos from a magazine and create something using the skills we learn in the past week. I tried to make it into a story but it needs work.

 

I am grateful that:

My friend in Germany is having a baby girl in a few hours. I told her that she was going to have a baby girl as her next child, a few years ago when she had her 2nd baby boy. She didn’t believe me and told me she was done having kids, that it was my turn to have them.

Thick cut bacon strips…Oh my goodness they are so good. Thank god, I mixed most of them into a veggie dish or I would have eaten the whole package. Bacon Bacon Bacon!!!!

That I had a fun day learning code even thought I strayed from the lesson plan and learn about other code thingies thanks to the black hole of google and the internet.

I dragged my lazy ass body to Mat Pilates class and I spend most of the class poking at the fat on my belly as I struggle with moves I didn’t have an issue with over a year ago.  So it’s a new experience trying to get back to a healthier weight in my life as I am now the heaviest I ever been in my life.  Need to stay away from bacon.

There was slice mango on sale at the Market. I’ve been craving it all day and it came with lime and chili powder. Prefect ending after eating 4 slices of bacon. Little reminders to slow down and enjoy the simple things in life.

1. Slowly coming to terms, it doesn’t matter what the hell anybody thinks of me anymore.  I’m trying the best I can and I’m going to make mistakes because I’m human. Both in my work and personal life, I need to stop giving myself unrealistic standers and if people are disappoint in me, when I’ve tried my best knowing what I knew at that time, it’s their issue.  I’m a web developer and I am working on my front end web development skills. I’m doing the best I can with what I have in both my work and personal life.
2. My friends, they are such amazing humans that I’m so privilege to have in my life.
3. Food in the fridge, which meant that I didn’t have to drive out in the rain and be force to interact with humans after class today.
4. I wrote a blog that I’m sorta of proud of. I haven’t written one before where, it’s pretty good for where I am at this point of my life. I wrote on the topic “Ten life lessons I learned my first year of WordPress: One.”  It comes out tomorrow. I will be writing one per month. Next month I’m going to challenge myself to write one on some code I learn. It’s going to be hard not to reinvent the wheel but being able to teach it is the main way to know if you really learned something.
5. I didn’t give up today during my 4 hours of my first ever Javascript class. It seems like everybody besides me in class has used it in some form or anther. My brain stopped working after almost 3 hours and it melted. I was also relieved to find out that normally, this would have been two 2 hour classes.  Over the next few days, I’m going to go back and slowly redo what I learned in class. I am determined to understand it, how it functions, and where it fits into coding.

1. My 2nd PHP class today. I have a lot to digest but I can read it at least.
2. Spending half the day in LA city. I miss the diversity of the city.
3. My Friends. They rock period.
4. The travel bag that I got for my trip came in and it’s heaver then I thought it would be but it’s fits my needs. Can’t wait to break it when I’m working the festival season in May.
5. Simple things like Food in the fridge and my kindle.

1. Sold three batches of my bath fizzes/bombs that I made experimenting with a recipe.
2. Met up with 3 friends today that bought my product.
3. My friend wants me to vend at her event and start selling my products in her studio.
4. We came up with the name “BeSpa” By BeLee and now has it’s own Facebook page.
5. Made it to a meditation class that I was on the fence about going to and I have a potential new web client from class.

 

This all start just being grateful for this one small epiphany just in time to reflect for the coming Chinese New Years.

Had a epiphany driving home from class with my dinner in tow, that I’m really to settle down to start dating, to find a parter to share with my life with.  Said I’ve wanted to start dating again before but I never did it  because there was because there were major issues that always took priority over my life. Now it’s pretty much has been addressed, even thought it’s not settle, but it’s enough to move forward.

• My career: I know I want to be in the web industry. Now it’s finding my place and getting paid for it as a full time job.  I’m willing to work hard for it as I have continued to learn and build when I can.
• My home: My housing situation will figure it self out and there isn’t much I can do about it till then.
• Family: The situations dealing with my father’s estate and family matters will work itself out also.
• Self: I’ve work on myself a lot since my last unhealthily relationship years ago, and I’m at a point where I am open to share that space to somebody.

Realizing all that, I am grateful that I’m finally starting to be in a good place despite the amounts of stress that I’ve been thought in the past year, and will be dealing with. Still learning to let go of the fear of things I can not control.  I can only deal with things bird by bird when it come for me all at once, and I just need to aspect I am doing my best. Now to meet a man that loves me and accept me, which might be a challenge but it will be well worth it at the end.

1.  Making it through the day despite all the chaos that is thrown at me.
2. Being a little more productive, while spending 2 hours at the doctor’s office.
3. Didn’t lose or gain weight last week. Which is a good thing because I wasn’t eating regularly or well last week but I know that was due to stress.
4.  I when to my weekly mat Pilates class despite wanting to stay home.  It still hurts a lot in class but I have to remind my self baby steps are better then none.
5. That I finally got everything I need to try my hand at making Bath Fizzies/Bombs.  I think slowly start to making all my own bath products again, and maybe start selling them when I make them in bulk.