Not sure what life is bringing me but…

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3 more weeks left in my program before I’m on my own again. Almost burned out with the drive daily 2 hours each way.   Love the high of having projects to code daily, and trouble shooting in class. Must love it since I just completed 13 weeks so far. When to a beginner’s Ruby meetup today,  I spent most of the time talking about WordPress + trying to learn Javascript. I think I need to stick to WordPress + JS even through I’m Ruby/Rails curious.

So I asked myself what would be my dream job. Want something I can grow my personal coding and related skills in, and it can be flexible.  Something with coding front end in WordPress for a non/not for profit or social work/welfare related. I realize that working on Audrey Capital for Automattic, would be my dream job. Don’t know how to make that happen but it’s now my goal or a similar job to that.

My goal for the next 3 weeks:

  • Stop skipping meals
  • Drink 8 cups of water/tea a day
  • Finish resume
  • Finish Codetalk portfolio
  • Keep learning Javascript, whatever that means
  • Keep  on working on learning Git + Github

“Once you make a decision, …

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the universe conspires to make it happen.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Decision
Decided late last year, I would stop letting the Imposter Syndrome effect me from heading into the tech industry full time, working with or around web development. When I decided, doors started and still am opening for me. I decided to learn Javascript this year. I when to a JS meetup in Jan. At this meetup, a lady talked about Codetalk a front end dev program for women. Googled it to find out that the deadline passed but I tried anyways.  48 hours later, I started the program.

Am really blessed for the timing of getting into Codetalk. My mother when into the hospital the same day I started the program and it kept me on track on working on my coding each day. Most of the stuff is review for me, but it’s helping me polish my code and jump start my JS. I have put my life on pause for my family over the 6 years, and coding is for me, as it’s helping me move forward with my life.

Starting to breathe life again, instead of just surviving it.  My mother’s terminal illness, there is only so much I can do and I’m doing my best.  Need to learn to make time to take care of myself, and deal with my own illnesses + ankle issues.   Am lucky that I have a roof over my head, a car that works, and food in my belly.  Really blessed that coding came back into my life when it did. It’s been my muse, my escape, my passion, and unexpected, it created an extended family that I’m blessed to have.