I realize that over the past 2 years since my ankle surgery and my father +uncle passing, I start getting really anxious to the point that I was borderline having a panic attack. Need to have whatever it was had to be done now, because I didn’t realize that I was panicking. I was told that grief and stress tends to manifest itself out in different ways with people. Didn’t realize till about 2 years later, the reasoning behind me getting impatient with life/myself/people, is really from me panicking. Which is me not dealing with my stress and grief because I didn’t know how to process it with so much on my plate. Now with my mother’s health failing, and my own major health issues, I’m trying to deal with it face on because partly, I just don’t have time or the energy to run from it anymore.