I am Grateful for:
Getting through the day and as much I could done today.
8 weeks of bi-weekly Pilates class and weekly dance class. I still struggle being able to get though the classes, and still working on reconnecting with my body.
Tea, Tea, and Tea.
I am grateful that:
My friend in Germany is having a baby girl in a few hours. I told her that she was going to have a baby girl as her next child, a few years ago when she had her 2nd baby boy. She didn’t believe me and told me she was done having kids, that it was my turn to have them.
Thick cut bacon strips…Oh my goodness they are so good. Thank god, I mixed most of them into a veggie dish or I would have eaten the whole package. Bacon Bacon Bacon!!!!
That I had a fun day learning code even thought I strayed from the lesson plan and learn about other code thingies thanks to the black hole of google and the internet.
I dragged my lazy ass body to Mat Pilates class and I spend most of the class poking at the fat on my belly as I struggle with moves I didn’t have an issue with over a year ago. So it’s a new experience trying to get back to a healthier weight in my life as I am now the heaviest I ever been in my life. Need to stay away from bacon.
There was slice mango on sale at the Market. I’ve been craving it all day and it came with lime and chili powder. Prefect ending after eating 4 slices of bacon. Little reminders to slow down and enjoy the simple things in life.
This all start just being grateful for this one small epiphany just in time to reflect for the coming Chinese New Years.
Had a epiphany driving home from class with my dinner in tow, that I’m really to settle down to start dating, to find a parter to share with my life with. Said I’ve wanted to start dating again before but I never did it because there was because there were major issues that always took priority over my life. Now it’s pretty much has been addressed, even thought it’s not settle, but it’s enough to move forward.
- My career: I know I want to be in the web industry. Now it’s finding my place and getting paid for it as a full time job. I’m willing to work hard for it as I have continued to learn and build when I can.
- My home: My housing situation will figure it self out and there isn’t much I can do about it till then.
- Family: The situations dealing with my father’s estate and family matters will work itself out also.
- Self: I’ve work on myself a lot since my last unhealthily relationship years ago, and I’m at a point where I am open to share that space to somebody.
Realizing all that, I am grateful that I’m finally starting to be in a good place despite the amounts of stress that I’ve been thought in the past year, and will be dealing with. Still learning to let go of the fear of things I can not control. I can only deal with things bird by bird when it come for me all at once, and I just need to aspect I am doing my best. Now to meet a man that loves me and accept me, which might be a challenge but it will be well worth it at the end.