Month: October 2015

Gratitude:

Got most of my slides done. I need to start timing my stories to see how long they take to talk about. Now have a fear it’s too short.

Discovering that Amy’s vegetable lasagna has a family size. I once bought a Sam’s Club membership because they used to sell that by the individual severing by the pack. Yes, I have a bad and expensive addiction to Amy’s vegetable lasagna. Need to learn to make my own now I have a kitchen.

Got my shelf, towel hanger, and mirror installed in my bathroom.  It’s beginning to feel like home.

Storage unit is almost completed. We still have a roof issue.

Got two pieces of furniture moved out of my unit. I can use the backdoor again. Now I have space to figure out what I need to clean out what I want to be moved into storage.

 

Gratitude:

• Dinner with a friend that just came back from a two week trip.
• The gifts that my friend bought me.
• Getting an draft outline with talk done. This will be the last version for this talk. Going to do the outline and starting on the slides tomorrow.
• Made it to my weekly Pilates class.
• Bought one of the studio’s extra form roller. Now I have one long enough to lay on.

 

 

Happiness

Rest. I really wanted to work on my talk but my body demanded rest. I listen and beginning to feel better. Still 100% but slowly.

 

 

Gratitude

Got through the last day of the CSS Dev Conf. My mind has been blown with what you can do with CSS. Can’t wait for the next one, and stepping up my CSS game.

The CSS Dev Conf Speaker Panel. I learn so much during the open Q’s&A’s and took a bunch of notes. It’s also nice to know that they have the same insecurities that I have.

Sara Soueidan favorited two of my two tweets. Sorry, having a huge Fan Girl moment.  Really wish I had the chance to talk to her.

Going to class tonight. I almost passed on it because I wasn’t feeling well. I really did like grounding and meditation we did today.

My teacher. He spotted that I wasn’t feeling well, and helped me deal with it.

 

 

Gratitude:

CSS Dev Conf. Really inspiring me to level up on my CSS coding and seeing what else is out there. There are a lot of inspiring women involved in this conference and community.

Talk to a few really cool people at the conference. I need to save up and go to at least one paid one per year or work somewhere that will pay my way.

Seeing a friend unexpectedly.  After the conference, I stop by her new spot for her bookstore, and unexpectedly, she happen to be there for a meeting.  Caught up a little, and she gave some advice on my talk.

Revamping my talk to have better flow.  So I need to figure out how to tell my story and addressing issues as it comes along to make the points I want to cover less dry.  Hope to finish this version by Friday and practice the hell of out it.

So glad that I risk being late to the conferance this morning and stopped by McD’s for breakfest. Having a full belly getting there was a great way to start the day. The breakfest that they provide was just mainly breads, which would have put me to sleep.

 

Happiness:

Getting back on track with my WordCamp Talk. I decide to axe the last section of my talk. It’s too short of a time to talk about branding and I decide to ask a few of my friends who freelance to give a few tips. As stress as I am over it and I know I’m going to rewrite it again, it’s motivating to get back on track.

Gratitude

Today end better then it started.

Made it to my last sewing class. I have a lot to do but I also need to get my sewing machine fixed.

Hung out with a couple of my friends tonight. I still pretty discounted but slowly feeling like back in my own skin again.

My friend reminding me last night and today that I need to get my confidence back. Since my ankle surgery, then the passing of my father and unlce, my confidence has taken a beating over the past two years.

Uncreustables from Costco. When I don’t want to cook or want to get food, I grab one out of the fridge.

“I know this transformation is painful, but you’re no falling apart; you’re just falling into something different, with a new capacity to be beautiful.” ~William C. Hannan

Gratitude:

Realizing that I need to reclaim my confidence back.

That I got to see and hang out with a couple of good friends I haven’t seen in a long while. Was going to go to my friend’s bookstore opening but a good friend I haven’t seen in a long time asked me to go to our friend’s show, so we can hang out.

Slowly falling back in love with life. It’s never going to be back the way it once was but I’m learning to be ok with it.  It’s going to take time to trust it but I’m working on it.  I can only move forward.

Starting to remember who I am, not was.  Creating what I want in this phase in my life, and moving forward. Baby steps. I’ve been living out of boxes for 11 months, and I put my life on pause since my father’s passing. Need to stop going back into survivor’s mode.

Having till the end of the year to get my life on track.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Happiness

Challenging myself to find happiness in moments even after things go wrong. It is ok to have bad moments, hours, days just process the emotions out and let it go. There are people who are assholes, and it’s ok, even if you become one for a moment. Have to remind myself, when my interactions with them ends, they have to live with themselves and the Karama that they created. If you are an assholes, everybody is an asshole to you because that is the reality you created/accepted. I would hate to live in that world.

Had about a horrible 3 hours, where the people were just being assholes to me as I was running errands and getting to all my doctor’s appointments. Came home and took a bit to shake it off. I had a great day till that chain of events happened, now I’m back in my normal zone. Happiness is bits of moments that make you smile.  Happily soaking back in my own energy in my little safe zone.

“The fastest way to success id to replace bad habits with good habits.” -Tom Ziglar

Gratitude:

Been working on adding new habits each few days.  This week: 1) Read an hour of Web/Tech/UX articles/books/group 2) Eat 3 times a day instead of once. Put a time on to remind me to eat. 3) Drink 8 cups of water per day. I use a 4 cup mason jar and  flavor it with tea.

That I might get my door to my storage room on friday, so I can get access to it. Been waiting for this since June. I can finally put my boxes away instead of my living room.

Have to make this my home. I realize I live in this unit even if I have to move in spring/summer.  Might buy a new dinning room table to save space but other then that, I’m going to wait.

Ikea. I got my standing/sitting desk today. Need to put it together next week. Looking at getting a compact dinning room table next.

My books all came today for my talk. Trying not to over think it but it’s my first talk so, I will. Trying finish it by Friday and start rehearsing it this weekend to do a run through.